For the last couple days I’ve come up short with what to write. I keep trying to think of something scary or highly personal, or some thing with lots of feels, but all I want to do is write about something happy. Every time I pull out my phone to write something I can’t help but think that nobody would want to read that. It feels like… bragging? This is probably my own personal overthinking happening, but isn’t it funny how that one thought can stop you from doing something. Instead of just telling you I’m happy, I somehow managed to over think the whole thing! I’d still like to share with you, so here are the moments this week that have made me happy.

• I used the Roomba this week and it made me happy. Not only does it clean my house but it gives Carmen and I a special moment together. See, she’s terrified of the damn thing. Every time I turn the Roomba on she comes crawling and crying to me as fast as she possibly can. She doesn’t really ask for ups all that often but when the rumba is running she can’t get her feet off the ground fast enough. It is so special to feel needed and to be the person that she runs to when she’s scared. We sit on the couch and watch the rumba do it’s thing. I drink my tea, and she clings to me for dear life leaning over once and a while to check where the Roomba is at.

•My husband and I are putting together a Bicycle event. This makes me happy. He’s using my idea and it’s it makes him happy. It will be a Halloween themed bike ride with the goal of getting people to do tricks in their costumes. I love putting events together. I’ve only done a couple for myself and helped with some at work but the planning and organizing makes my over thinking brain happy. It’s also damn scary. What if it turns out bad and people end up having a really sucky time? Or what if someone hurts themselves? Or worse, no one comes in costume. Also I tend to have this issue of dreaming up a cool idea and being disappointed when it isn’t executed the exact way that I imagined. Either way it’ll still be very fun.

• For our family day we went out to an empty reservoir and let the dogs run around. They loved it. I was able to get a video of Carmen holding her dad‘s hand and walking a couple of steps. She’s making so much progress so fast. Watching my husband beam down at her because he was so proud of her taking those steps made me feel so certain that motherhood is worth all the sleepless nights.

• It feels like Halloween is tomorrow. Which means the rest of the holidays are the following week and I am so excited for all of them. I’m really looking forward to Halloween and getting to dress my baby up and making the house all spooky. It is everything I wanted to do the last couple years and now I finally get to. My husband isn’t quite as excited as I am, but he can suck it. Little Christmas dresses, Christmas stockings, having her try thanksgiving dinner, it all sounds so fun. I can’t wait for all of it.

These are a couple things that made me smile this week. Somehow it’s easier for me to write my scary feelings down rather than share the happy ones, but it is just as important. Just as valid. I hope I get to hear about some of your happy moments, dear reader. I’m sure they will also make me smile.